Pain.

Ever felt pain?
No, I don't mean physical pain.
I mean the pain that radiates from your soul to every part of you like a free-flowing mountain river.
The pain that you do your best to bite back, even though one little push can make you fall apart like a house of cards.
The pain that comes from the knowledge that no one will ever understand exactly how broken you are.
Yet, you're ashamed of feeling this pain because you know that there are people whose sufferings are worse than yours, but that thought provides no comfort when you're helplessly crying into your pillow, unable to stop that ache inside of you.
You try your best every single day, even though you know you're never even gonna come close to being good enough.
Your body wants to live and your mind wants to die. And you're stuck in the middle, barely able to breathe, like someone's put you in liquid oxygen. The liquid that makes you feel like you're drowning, and the oxygen won't let you die.
Ever felt like that?
'Cause that's how I feel every single day.