Sunshine.

"Imagine you've been held prisoner in a dark cell for so long that you've forgotten what light is. And one day, there's a little crack in the wall of your cell and a ray of light falls through it. The brilliance of the light hurts your eyes at first, but slowly, it becomes the most wonderful thing you've come across in ages. The light becomes your source of comfort, and of your happiness. It's that lone ray of sunshine that keeps you the will to live alive. So when you ask me why I don't move on from him, it's because I can't. I just can't."
- the answer to a question I didn't know how to answer then.

Starving.

We are nothing but starving souls, craving love.

Blurred lines.

They say that there is a fine line
between love and friendship.
But when I'm with you,
That line gets blurrier
With each passing moment...

"New Boyfriend?"

"New boyfriend?", He asked, almost hesitantly.
She laughed, "Why would I willingly do that to myself again?"

Dear Little Butterfly.

As you fled my fragile grasp
And flew away with your soft wings,
You left me stained with your beautiful colours,
A little on my fingers,
And a lot more on my soul...

On Marriage.

Marriage. The general definition of marriage is the union of two individuals for life through certain rites and rituals. For me, it is a hollow and hilarious show in which two idiots gear up to ruin each other's lives forever (or at least till they get divorced).
Yes, as you may have guessed by now, I don't believe in marriage.
Well, that's kind of an inaccurate statement because I do believe in marriage, it's just that I have my own understanding of marriage.
For me, marriage doesn't just entail being with a single person for the rest of my life. It entails my complete and utter trust my partner, and my partner's complete and utter trust in me. So much that we would never have a shred of doubt about the other person's loyalty.
The person that I choose to marry should be someone I simply cannot exist without. Someone whose heart beats to the same rhythm as mine. Someone who makes me fall in love with them, a little more every passing second. Someone who shares their hopes, dreams, secrets and fears with me. Someone who makes me want no one else other than that person. Someone who I can bare my soul to. Someone who makes all the broken pieces inside me become un-broken. Someone who makes me want to be with them for as long as our mortal bodies can survive.
Simply put, my soul mate.
For me, marriage is about waking up in the morning next to the love of my life.
It's trying to train the puppy we adopted to not tear open our pillows but ending up throwing pillow stuffings at each other, laughing our asses off.
It's standing in the kitchen covered in flour and God knows what, trying to cook up some fancy recipe we saw on the internet.
It's compromising and making up after an argument because we can't bear the thought of losing each other.
It's sharing a secret smile as we watch our children play.
It's being 70 years old and walking down a park holding each other's hands.
For me, marriage means forever.
And if I can't have that, I'd rather not have it at all.
Everything I've seen up to this day, has been staunch proof that the kind of marriage I believe doesn't exist anymore, and probably never existed at all.
Which is why, me saying that I would like to marry someone would be a very big deal as it's not something that I would say very lightly or easily.
And funnily enough, my first reaction to someone I'm in love with, asking me to marry them would be to run away (Yes, I would literally just run away), and hyperventilate for an hour before getting back to them.
So what I'm trying to say is that it's unfair to swear eternal love through marriage to someone if you're not absolutely sure. Because if things end badly between the both of you, it's also going to affect people around you, especially your children, if you have any. They're going to grow up cynical and bitter, without any belief in love.
So, live your life. Travel. Learn new things. Fall in love. And when you're absolutely sure, marry the love of your life. :)
That's it for now. Bye.